Sunday, April 29, 2007 8:49 PM
i'm not going to lie.
i havent been exactly myself during the last couple of days. i really dont know why. i just havent been me. not completely brain dead, but not high as usual. i'm suspended, lets leave it at that.
friday was VJ drama nite. great fun got to catch up with the guys again. realised how much i miss all of them. its always a bummer when you gotta leave great friends like that but hey thats the way life goes eh? at least we spent some good quality time together and had a blast.
3/4 of the show was brilliant. enjoyed it and started getting me pumped up to finish up my plays and stuff so i can get 'em out there too.
saturday was nothing special. oral presentation. choked on that, gassed it. screwed it up. maybe i should have prepped more, but thats a decision i chose to make and i'll live with it. had lunch with nicole and val at causeway after that and talked about what life would be if we weren't in the SSS.
kinda makes you wonder.
did nothing productive that afternoon. for some reason i was completely spaced out. i just sat there stoning for once in my life. yeah i tilted a bit and wrote a little bit here and a little bit there. chatted on msn but did nothing productive and nothing inside of me bugged me enough for me to get any work done.
drowned myself in phantom of the opera music on my piano. fell into my own little world of the music of the night and drifted off into the depths of my imagination.
church today. preist made no sense. or maybe i was just tuned out. ashira rehearsals after that. was nice to see the cast again after a while. its like family to me despite my pathetically small role in the whole show.
got back and just felt no motivation to do anything again. nuah basically. tilted again and wrote spurts here and there but still nothing remotely productive.
mugged a little management but my brain kept screaming at me to stop.
but the exams are just a week away. i need to get down to business soon. hopefulls its just a phase.
maybe i'm just shagged.
but why?
spread the lovin'
Rob Valentine