i'm home safe.

you ever get that feeling at the end of an absolutely awesome movie (ie. star wars or the lord of the rings trilogy or the matrix trilogies) or like an absolutely brilliant musical or stage production (like joseph, phantom or les miserables) or the final episode of a long running fantabulous tv series (friends, everybody loves raymond) and just go "wow, that was such a great ride...I really don't want it to end...I wanna see whats happens next" even though you know it's the end...

but what keeps you glued to it, what keeps you wanting to come back for more? simple, you've watched the charactes grow, and you've grown with them. you've cried with them, laughed with them and seen them go through so much, you feel an inseperable bond of attachment with them...it's so strong, you just don't want to let go...even if it is the end of the road...

and yes, if you haven't already guessed what this is all about let me just spell it out for you...it's finally come to the end of a magical and truly wonderful 2 year journey for me in the singapore sports school. i mean truly it's been just brilliant. but now's the time to pretty much begin my long process of writing thank you cards and getting ready to say goodbye to some of the most amazing people I've met thus far in my young life...

it's all kinda hit me really hard in the past couple of days, a little too hard i guess. i mean its seems all so cliche but it seems like just yesterday that i got roped on board on this crazy adventure with 8 other promising young golfing talents...we were pretty much just aquaintences up till then. but now have become very close friends, and compeditive rivals, all of whom I respect very much.

but yeah, no one knew how everything was going to work out, we just prayed that it would. and now that everything has, i guess we're all kinda wishing deep down in our hearts that we could play it all over again, like some 4am re-run of a friends episode from 1999...but we cant...

now everyone's going their seperate ways. first was big boss melwong early on in the year...then others followed...

gone is my dear roomie honkie the primate, gone is the ever-ready biogirl sarah, gone is my beloved waving partner nicole seah, gone is thunderthighs, dezzie my big bro, kalusha my blackmailer...

even my favourite teacher and friend flossie chua's gone...like some stupid overrated horror show they're dropping off one by one...

soon my dearest friend and close confidant sophie will be gone too, off to RP along with my pirate assistant and fellow club champion leon.

even my best friend and brother from another mother might be leaving soon too. he's trying to get into RP for some tech.media thingy course and I really sincerely hopes he gets into it. if it really is the will of God, who am I to speak otherwise. he'll be much happier there too so I wish his appeal all the best...God Speed

as for good old timmy? what becomes of him? now he who has been sealed with the gift of the holy spirit and a confirmed catholic just oozing and bubbling with the love of God and an eagerness to bring that to others?

i don't know. where my heart lies is still divided. my commitment to my game is as unwaivering as ever. I wanna be the best. I also wanna continue with the creative side of me, writing, acting and hey, even singing...but now there's a new player in the ballgame for my attention - God and my commitment to the church. I really feel strongly about helping out in the youth ministry and the church next year. I really wanna give back I really do.

I've got more things running around in my mind now, probably a good idea just to sort everything out within the next 1 or 2 days.

sigh. so many things racing in my head. no woner I've got a bloody headach since morning. shiet. at least the braces arent killin me no more.

I hope you're fortunes are better than mine at this present time...

God Love you always

spread the lovin'

Rob Valentine