this weekend's probably gonna be my quiet time for some spiritual introspection. so here goes...

went for confi class yesterday and we all kinda got jolted a bit by uncle eric. i mean that in a nasty but nesassary way. whether you like it or not, we've all kinda lost a bit of the high and the drive we were so full of after the camp. and realising that sucks. personally i've felt that my spiritual life has gotten stronger than ever and I'm sure that there are others who feel the same way but its not true for the ENTRIE class. which is sad

but somehow i kinda feel more numb about everything when in a group environment like that cause you don't wanna be the oddball, or one of the group of oddballs that kinda stick out cause you still feel the love of God echoing inside you. but having said that, i realise that that is one of the stupidest things to ever think/say/do. I mean, I love all my confi classmates trememdounsly and if anything I gotta try to bring some of that love back into their lives in one way or another. small though it may be, but at least i would have tried...

on that note. probably realised that I'm somewhat a two faced hypocrite when it comes to my life. on one hand, now that I'm deep into my faith in my own little and intimate way, i just go along and talk and help my troubled friends as much as i can whenever I can. and it makes me feel good, cause thats what i like doing, helping people...showing 'em a bit of love. makin 'em smile, thats what i do. but on the other hand. despite all that I tell them and all the advice I give...I STILL struggle facing my own personal demons. and yes, that's drainig sometimes. temptation is a very very real part of my everyday life and more often than not I lose.

went to OLPS for youth mass and sermon was good. kinda was what I'd hoped to hear. the Lord's always willing to forgive your sins and loves you too much to not want to help. he's always there by your side and will never forsake you. And I'm like really really remorseful now, and I mean it. That's probably the only glith right now in my very happy and fulfilling life. and I cant wait to get it fixed

had a last night last night, had supper with nicole and val then sent them home in a cab. fare came up to about $25 but it was a small price to pay for the company. crashed at about 1am. slept through 'till 10. much needed rest

probably gonna spend the rest of the day in quiet contemplation, in between writing and working out.

i think this weekend's gonna be a great de-tox for my soul and something thats gonna prepare me for confirmation.

God Bless

spread the lovin'

Rob Valentine